| Monday, May 8th, 2006 |
| 10:08 am |
:(. Perplexed and frustrated despite some things going amazingly well. Current Mood:  depressed |
| Monday, April 24th, 2006 |
| 9:21 am |
havnt been near a computer for the better part of two weeks, is not good! For once everything is going fine for me :). Hope everyone who was on easter holidays had a good time. Major upheaval for me in close future but believe me i am so looking forward to it! |
| Wednesday, April 5th, 2006 |
| 8:40 am |
omg, second break up of the year for me! But believe me im not upset about this one at all ;). The guy i was with turned about to be a complete nutter in disguise. He finished with me because i wasnt willing to provide him with support because he had pulled a knife out on someone at college and held it to their throat, then was caught doing it on CCTV. He was more angry with me because i didnt take it too well. Seriously i never thought he could do such a thing, he seemed so placid when i met him... the gentle lovable stoner. For the love of god where do i find people like this. Its really disturbing! All men ive met recently are just waiting to screw up im so sure. If this continues i might have to settle for someone who is completely boring and wears a suit and actually has to go to work in an office job. Not good at all. My skin feels so unclean :s (and to be honest he actually tried it on with me without my permission so hes just an amazing guy!) Current Mood:  cynicalCurrent Music: pearl jam |
| Wednesday, March 1st, 2006 |
| 2:09 pm |
the mood says it all. And with that i take my leave. Current Mood:  happy |
| Monday, February 13th, 2006 |
| 3:25 pm |
today has been really interesting in many ways and not all of the negative variety!I definately feel happier and i even have homework and i dont care! Something must be wrong with me to say that. Bring on the 1834 Poor Law System! Current Mood: pleasedCurrent Music: Beach Boys |
| Monday, February 6th, 2006 |
| 12:31 pm |
And so it begins..... Current Mood: restless |
| Monday, January 23rd, 2006 |
| 12:33 pm |
classes are completely deserted thanks to exams etc. Have A2 Biology exam tomorrow morning which should be interesting, lets see if all that revision actually pays off!missing my friends and am bored out of my tiny little mind. hmm... i would like: to forget a conversation i had few days ago to see some people close to me happier to feel as optimistic about some things as i did other day Not to feel that im spending every waking moment worrying about a forthcoming exam, academic or otherwise! I need sleep and herbal tea, whatever order im not fussy! Current Mood:  lethargic |
| Monday, December 12th, 2005 |
| 12:30 pm |
at college looking up stuff for ideas on what to do next year. Really want to go home tho, what started out as just a cold now feels more like flu. God damn my immune system sucks. However, am happy in the knowledge that break up for xmas hols on friday :) yay!Olivers back down a week today, will get him all to myself, hopefully he will not be too depressed by then. His degree is killing him! Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: t - rex |
| Thursday, November 24th, 2005 |
| 11:02 pm |
bah! a good night sleep will cure my mood. y do i have to be the one to speak out. I think its better blending into the carpet and going along with the things. On a lighter note, my brother is coming home for a few days, shall be good ive missed him. Current Mood: moody |
| Monday, November 7th, 2005 |
| 11:06 am |
getting really stuck its coming round to the time that im actually going to have to decide what i want to do when i leave here, and i have to say that i have no idea what so ever. am really confused :(. am not feeling my best at the moment and i might as well say im sorry now before i upset anyone. Current Mood:  confused |
| Wednesday, October 19th, 2005 |
| 10:20 am |
swamped in work but i dont care much to be fare i kind of enjoy it :). Half term next week too which is another thing to be happy about. Tom i appologise very much for my seen at the top of sticklepath hill but for the love of christ i was absolutely mortified ;)hehe. And thats as far as it goes because i do not need other people knowing my shame of poor clutch control! see you soon x x Current Mood:  busy |
| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005 |
| 1:55 pm |
im out of my tree i believe and you no what, i dont care.From yesterday i realised something, that the only person you can trust 100% is yourslef. And if you trust yourself not to screw things up thats half the battle won. But there is no accounting who and what else is out there and unfortunatley this is what i personally have let merge with my well being. im not going to be pushed into a corner again to the extent that i am going to react in ways that i have done, that honestly have had a serious impact on the people i care about. Im looking after myself. Current Mood:  determined |
| Sunday, September 25th, 2005 |
| 11:01 am |
feelin ill, not fair. spent last night trying to sleep on sofa and it failed miserably. I dont have time to be sick :(. Current Mood:  sickCurrent Music: pearl jam - black |
| Saturday, September 17th, 2005 |
| 11:36 pm |
first week of college gone and im v glad to be back :). Just kinda upset right now because my brothers going back to uni again tomorrow. Miss him really. Had professional photos taken of me and him today (because hes 21 and im 18, sort of special) which was kinda good but its been about 7 hours onwards and my face still hurts from smiling so much! Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: Alice in Chains - Would |
| Thursday, September 8th, 2005 |
| 3:44 pm |
just come back from my holiday and i cant tell you how much i wish i was back there right now. Britian is just one depressing hole. Everything is so much more simple when your in fantasy land! I can deny reality all i want damn it ;)! My birthday tomorow but it will be overshadowed by certain events which have got far more of my attention right now!I really dont care its just another day, all that will change is that i have the right to get drunk (which kind of takes the edge off of things ;)) and can sign my own name on forms. There isnt much room for upset right now its just aggression. A weird feeling maybe, who knows. Current Mood: moody |
| Thursday, August 25th, 2005 |
| 1:42 am |
many hugs for one person and one person only of paramount importance x x |
| Wednesday, August 24th, 2005 |
| 5:53 pm |
havnt been near a computer for about a week, but i got 3 A's and a B for as level results, am v happy :). Current Mood: chipper |
| Wednesday, August 17th, 2005 |
| 6:03 pm |
not so much doom and gloom this time ;) rather that my exam results are out tomorrow and now am starting to feel just that little bit ill!Will either be excited to the nth degree or in floods of tears but who knows. My exams seem like a distant memory now, the whole area has gone rather hazy! Current Mood:  thoughtful |
| Monday, August 8th, 2005 |
| 11:05 pm |
i cant sit and eat a full on meal at 10:30 at night!So yeah another meal that i have decided to 'skip'. And news just in bathroom at toms has just been locked from the inside!Laughs all around damn it. Current Mood: frustrated |
| Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005 |
| 10:26 am |
Not much to report but am a little happier :) is no fun feeling low. AS level results come out this month, im dying to no what i got. Need to no if my confidence in english can be justified! Looking forward to it in a way, i worked hard for that lot. Also, is pretty good at the moment coz my brothers got a job at somerfield so my overtime shifts cross with his and i can pretend to do some work when im really mooching around with him. Is a pleasant enough way to pass the summer :). Going to see Charlie and the Chocolate factory today with friends. Now that i am looking forward to, am a great believer in Tim Burton films. Current Mood: relaxed |
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